Forever Expanding Awareness In Liberation

Often I have faced situations where I find myself seeking or asking within for an answer to an apparent problem or dilemma. Usually I just sort of know what it is I must do, say, what course of action I must take etc. Take going to MKP for instance. I knew nothing about it. I was not looking for anything. I was not facing any issue or problem in my life to which MKP might have been a solution. Rather the New Warrior weekend was simply recommended to me by someone—for whatever reason that might have had running in their story at that time—and later a man phoned me to see if I was going to come. I knew to go to the introduction meeting. I sat there and saw men who, in my opinion at the time, were in a rather different space from me and had some sort of life-crisis that spurred them to doing the weekend. So my questioning mind had no data to really base a decision on. Yet I simply “knew” that this is something I am to do.
Now, I’ll jump into my point. Had I not liked what I perceive the consequence of going would be then it is highly likely I would have felt like “I don’t know what to do”. Same data. Same situation. Same intuitive guidance, yet a different experience.
This is a fairly simple example that may not illustrate my point as clearly as I would like, so I shall explain some more.
What I have learnt is that by the time a person is saying “I don’t know what the answer is” the truth underlying that “state” is that this person got an answer that they do not like the perceive consequences of. A person is either open to knowing and remains open to the guidance that will move them into “right action” or they know and are now taking that action—or perhaps consciously choosing not to take that course of action, yet also not complaining that they don’t know. Nearly always only these two states are authentic. The state of “I don’t know”… well, it’s just a smoke screen.
I know what to do, yet the story I tell at the level of ego-mind in regards to that knowing is one I don’t like. Let’s say I was to ask “Should I do A or B”.Eventually—usually instantly—the answer is there. Intuition is not a time based phenomena. The answer might be “Go with doing B”.Yet I may have the belief that B is going to mean I’ve got to do something that I judge as too challenging, too revolutionary, too difficult, too outside my comfort zone, etc. Therefore I will block this intuitive guidance. I will block the answer that is beating at the door in my mind. This will result in me entering that state of “I don’t know what to do”. This is a facade. A self-protection mechanism cunningly thrown up like a smoke screen by the ego-mind (ego simply being a misidentification of Self)—some might say it’s a smoke screen thrown up by shadow.
I invite you to explore what I have put forth here. I invite you to take deeper look at those areas in your life where you feel like “I don’t know what the answer is” or “I don’t know what to do”. Ask yourself, what is it about the hunch I am getting that I don’t like.
Another way that will often cut to the core of what it is I am avoiding by maintaining a state of “I don’t know” is to deeply and honestly ask myself, “What is the last thing I would want God to tell me to do in this situation”? Or, with regards to the question I am asking, “What is the answer would I be most afraid to get if God were to answer this for me?”