Forever Expanding Awareness In Liberation

Greetings.
It is some months since I lasted posted a blog entry here. Enjoy…

We are going to take a look at what illusions the ego maintains with regards to the concepts we call success and failure.

I know there are many people in the society in which I live who are quite literally striving for success. There are also many people caught up with investing their energy into the belief that they are somehow failures. Then there are those that think they have a fear of success, and that this is what causes them to fail (in their opinion).

I know I that for some years I subscribed to this idea of fearing success. More than just thinking I had a “fear of success”, I am aware that there was also a more elaborate story the ego would tell around this madness: I actually felt like this “fear of success” was something I was somehow a victim to as a result of some unfair thing that had happened to me at some point in my existence; that there was somehow something more noble or “Okay” about having a “fear of success” as opposed to simply “being a failure”; and that the fact I had a “fear of success” made it okay to continue “failing”, whilst I figured out, worked on, and healed the cause of my fear of success. All of this seemed very real and valid at the time. Now it makes me laugh.

This morning I spent some time exploring the nature of success and failure. What I realized during that exercise is what I am going to share with you now.

• Success is not something I make happen. Rather it is something I re-cognise, allow to be, open to, and express / experience in that state of allowance.
• Success is simply when my perceived reality is in alignment or accordance with Intention—the Intentionality that is driving my life into being
• Success is to allow Intent to flow and express unhindered.

Universal Intent (God’s Will, as some put it), or the Intent of Infinity (as others might put it) = success. “God’s will be done”, so to speak. Success is in fact unavoidable. It already IS. The necessary conditions for success are already here and now. In reality success is not only inevitable, but it is right now, and is therefore quite unavoidable.

So let us take a quick look at failure:

• Failure is an impossibility
• Failure is to block the alignment of perceived reality and God’s Will (or Universal Intent).
• This is, of course, impossible and is therefore nothing more than an ego-trip.
• This means that there is no such thing as failure
• Therefore failure requires the ego’s cunning illusion of Time. Only in time can I dream up the illusion that I have failed or that I am a failure.

What I see is that so-called failure actually requires energy. I have to invest my power into this state or condition I call failure. Success, on the other hand, already is and on that basis it requires no energy at all. All I have to invest into success is my attention. I simply have to give me attention to what is, here and now, and success is unavoidable.

To have a “fear of success” is really just another cunning way the ego tricks me into continuing to remain caught up in—and investing my energy/power into—the illusion of failure. Fear is perhaps the only form of failure. Fear is also an illusion although it feels real enough in the time in which I experience it. It is only here within time (past, present, and future) that I can experience fear. I once saw it put that F.E.A.R. is an acronym for “False Evidence Appearing Real” or “False Expectations Appearing Real”. What this implies is that fear requires an expectation or evidence. Of course both of these are derived from the past. An expectation is something I pre-establish in the past and bring to what I consider to be now. Evidence is something I gather up in the past and bring to this moment in order to prove or disprove something. If the past was dropped then evidence and expectation would verily vanish forever.

FEAR is also an acronym for Forever Expanding Awareness in Restriction. It is time—the apparent illusion of time—that brings about all forms of apparent restriction. If I drop time and reside in the Eternal Now then what was previously experienced as restriction is instantaneously replaced with Liberation. Thus we end up with Forever Expanding Awareness in Liberation—this website’s namesake.

Again we come back to the reality to in order to engage ones attention with NOW I simply have to be willing to Feal.

To feal, is to heal, which is to be real.

The key points to remember in regards to success and failure are this:

• Failure is energy inefficient — it is an illusion that requires life-force to maintain. It requires fighting against what is.
• Failure is, therefore, a fight against your own true nature or Self.
• Success already is. It is an innate quality or factor built into all that you are.
• All the conditions necessary for success are here right now.

We shall also take a look at this topic from an etymological perspective—which simply means we will look at the word itself and see what its roots are in order to get to the real meaning behind it.

The word success is derived from the Latin word successus, which is the past participle of succedere, which is the Latin word from which we derive success. This Latin word means “to come after”, or “to follow after”. Originally success simply meant “A result or an outcome”. This was later replaced by the notion that success is when the desired or intended outcome is what results. In the 1400’s we started using the phrase “to succeed well”—”May you succeed well”, for instance. This was the equivalent of wishing someone success in today’s use of English language.

We still use the word succeed to indicate the succession of one thing after another. For example, “The Prince succeeded his father to the throne”, or “The reaction succeeds the addition of the reagent”.

If I make a choice—which is an act of intent—then it is a given that a consequence will succeed that choice. Put simply, my choice will be followed (succeeded) by an outcome or a consequence. If the outcome or consequence accurately reflects my Divinity (the Truth of That which I Am; my true nature) then it could be said that my choice has succeeded well, or that I have succeeded in accordance with What Is (Love / The Will of God / Universal Intent).

If the result of my choice does not accurately reflect my true nature then it could be said that I succeeded badly. The indicator of this is pain of any kind (pain being anything other than deep Inner Peace). Either way I am, in this moment, a success—what I am right now here in this world is what followed-on from the choices I have made. A consequence has followed on from my choice (my act of intent). As an ego-mind (a human identity), I am the success of all my past choices. If I am not happy with the outcome (what I am now) then I must simply look at the choices I have been making and start making different ones.

For those that didn’t find this word exploration too complicated to follow it will have become apparent that the original meaning (or intention) behinds the word success also indicates that success is inevitable. It is unavoidable, and it will therefore require an investment of personal power to maintain any illusion to the contrary—such as the illusion of failure.

It should also be apparent that if you don’t enjoy what you are succeeding at (the consequences which succeed your choices) then the power to change that is in your hands, and always has been. For you are always a success—to fail is simply to make a succession of choices that result in you experiencing something less that what is True about you here and now.

On that note, I wish you the greatest of success in re-cognising the magnificence of all that you are.

Blessings,

Jonathan Evatt

The following is some dialogue I have had with a friend who has been living in the UK for the past year or so, and is now visiting Florida for a while. With her permission I am posting this dialogue here as I feel it makes a good learning piece—both in terms of her own observations of life in Florida, and in terms of the points we have discussed regarding what she is going through.

… you know, I have had to draw on your wisdom a number of times in the past week. We talked about there being no ‘right’ or ‘wrong’, yet for me this particular judgement is the one that seems to be the first one I make. Many times I have caught myself judging, reminding myself to bring myself back to ‘being’, and remembering that the way it is, just is.

Florida is WAY behind in terms of environmental issues and general awareness of the world. In comparison the UK looks like the most environmentally conscious place in the world. I find it particularly hard not to judge in terms of their relationship with food. the past 6 months I have been eating minimal meat, mainly organic food, lots of veggies and beans and trying to avoid supporting companies with dodgy ethical practices. Wow, to be thrown into Floridian mass consumerism is quite a culture shop. I spend a lot of time with my host mother, Jane, and our realities are worlds apart. I am managing to be patient with her, and observe her views, rather than react to them. I feel in a way they feel threatened by my different views, so are immediately defensive about these issues. It is interesting to observe the different relationship she has with food. it is hard, but it is not my place to step in and disagree, this is just her reality and way she has experienced the world.

I have had some interesting conversations, and I’d like to share them with you.

“I just can’t understand that with how strict the hygiene standards are these days, why any one would risk making their own baby food”.

I was about to put some eggs in the trolley. Jane said, ” don’t get those, these ‘egg beaters’ are so much easier’. (I looked at what she was pointing at - ‘egg beaters’ are the brand name for eggs in liquid form that have already been cracked and beaten and sealed in a tetra pack. only thing is, in addition to ‘eggs’ on the ingredients label, there were about 10 other ingredients, all of which were nothing that sounded that beneficial to my body!). It was hard to say, oh no, just plain eggs are fine for me, and to try and justify that statement, without sounding condescending or pretentious.

This evening I was discussing my fantastic results with Chinese medicine with my host sister Wendy, who is pregnant with her 3rd child. All three pregnancies have been very medicalised, in a way that it seems pregnancy is a ‘disease’ that needs to be constantly monitored. As a result, (in my view), both previous pregnancies have been caesarean. Anyway, she was impressed with how I was now having periods etc, but then spoke in a hushed dramatic tone “But Rachel, you must understand that if you do decide to get pregnant you must stop taking the herbs immediately, they are completely unregulated and haven’t even got FDA approval”. I tried to have a discussion to the contrary, but this life they live here is so regulated by drugs, than an alternative is not comprehendible. It is so so so so sad.

How did humans get to be this way?
How have so many of us completely lost our connection with nature, with who we are?
I feel they have handed over their relationship with themselves over to someone else, to the doctor in the white coat who can ‘cure’ any ailment, to the multinational junk food corporations who cause most of their ailments in the first place…

…so I started off this email with the idea that nothing was right or wrong. But realise I am actually still judging it as ‘wrong’. Which makes me sad as I love these people dearly. They are all suffering from an assortment of various illnesses, and all take a cocktail of drugs. Jane even keeps a packet of antibiotics in her purse in case she starts to feel sick. I would like to be able to enlighten them some how, wishing I had your ability to share and teach, as you did me.

My reply to this email was as follows:
A splendidly interesting email. Poignant with the woes of stepping outside the evolution path that most of humanity (in our culture, and many others) are choosing to be on.
As you “wake up” you literally leave the evolutionary path that most of humanity is on. It might be more accurate to say that you jump to a point in the path that is “way ahead” of where most of humanity is currently at, and hence, for all intents and purposes, it’s like jumping to a different evolutionary path.

There is an article I wrote on the feal.org blog which I think was called something like “The error of making the world wrong”. It recall that it perhaps goes into exploring this right / wrong thing you’ve described.

My friends follow-up to the above was this:

Yes, I can identify the ‘foot in both camps’ way that I am at the moment, while I am here with this lovely family. It is hard and I feel very torn at seeing them as victims of mass consumerism and everything that goes along with it. There is no recycling, and the amount of waste generated by each person is sickening - I feel awful each time I throw yet more perfectly recyclable material in the bin to fill up another landfill.

But your words free me a little. Enable me to stand back. And give me reassurance. Thank you.

My reply…
It’s this “seeing them as victims of mass consumerism and everything that goes along with it” this is tripping you up. You are seeing them through the perception of the ego and not through the Vision of the Soul. This may, therefore, be a key to unlock more of your Inner Power. For instance, where in your life (past / present / future) still harbour the belief (most likely unconsciously) that you are “a victim to the _______ aspect of the world” ? Whatever aspect that might be… fill in the gap when you discover what it is. Where do I still formulate my sense of what is real and what is possible based on what has been fed to me by the outer world? In what ways do I feel victim to that? What, therefore, is my Soul asking me to forgive and let go of?

I encourage you to take some quite time out to reflect on these things. Out in nature would be best — although not entirely necessary if not an option.

Saturday, 25 June 2005 3:19 a.m.

I see too that we forget the reasoning — the Intent, to put it more precisely — behind that which we are creating.
I forget WHY I am creating as I am. I observe that having lost a deeper sense of purpose and function we so often start to create that which is destructive… that which disrupts the balance and natural order of things… of our Kingdom… and this eventually (again it might take time, but it is sure to come) returns as we experience the consequence of this destructivecreation. It starts to destroy us — its point of origin — and that brings about pain.
So that pain… it serves a purpose… yes, it puts a little — or a BIG — jolt through the system.
That jolt wakes me up to what I am doing and then I can bring awareness into this particular aspect or configuration of my dream construct.

The whole thing is so perfectly designed. There is no flaw that I am aware of.
It is one vast, uniform, expression of Life — of consciousness unfolding and expressing and extending unto itself — perfect in all ways.
Of course, That which I AM is created in the Image and likeness of that which created first — That which some call God — and therefore that which I am is as perfect as that “thing” called God. Thusly, that which I created must to be an extension of That which I am — which is wholly perfect in every way for it is the in the image and likeness of God — and hence it too is perfect. Whole and complete unto itself.

Oh it is so magnificent. So beatific, wondrous, exquisite.

Useless words and adjective. They fail in comparison to that which they have come to symbolise and communicate.

Communicate they don’t. What communion can be found and experienced through these mere words?
None.

Only that which the words might verily point the way toward.
The only thing words should point the way toward is WITHIN for everything else has no potential for communion to arise.

Even if words are used to draw attention to something that is “out there” such as a beautiful sunset, or the wild stormygrey rain… whatever the case may be… this too really ought to be brought back to source… back to WITHIN, to the interiority of That which I AM, for only there does it really mean anything. Only there does ANY-THING have any true value, function, and purpose.

Oh yes, the glory of that which is WITHIN… at the centre, the core of That Being That I AM. The stillness. Ah yes. The stillness. Thatis the way to that beautiful and splendid place that is only found WITHIN.

All my divergences WITHOUT must by the very cyclic nature of things bring me back to that which is WITHIN. One is an extension of the other. That which is created never leaves it source. Therefore as I venture into that which is created — the WITHOUT — I must by default eventually end up back with what is true and real… that which is WITHIN.

Again… the entire creation… not matter what appearance and form it might seem to take… is always HOLY perfect. Such magnificence.

A VISION

I would like to see more unity — manifest and tangible unity — amoung those that play the role of “teacher”, “healer”, “guide” in this world. The Deepak Chopra’s, the Stuart Wilde’s, the MarianneWilliamson’s, the Greg Bradens, the Theun Mares’, the Neale Donald Welsh’s… etcetera. I would like to see more unity amoung us…
To what degree, I ask, are we really living what we preach and teach? I do, of course, ask this of myself, and the answer is a frail one.

Each securely maintaining our seemingly individual existence, our fame, our fortune, our public profile and image, our “oh so busy” schedules.
How many of us securely adhere to these things, yet what of the OTHER SIDE… what of the other dimension of Being?
Do we bring those things through into this world, into our Kingdoms in an ego-less and pure way? [ Argh... what is this "purity" I speak of? Fuck purity. Let me rather say "in a REAL way"... yes, "into our Kingdoms in an ego-less and REAL way" ]

Are we ready for that?
I wonder.
I really do.
Am I ready for that? I feel like I am.
Something in me yearns for like-minded and spirit folk to simply come together and collaborated whollyand truly. To drop all the bullshit and just to be. And to then CREATE. The power of that…. oh yes, it would emanate out into the world, into the collective Kingdom like the pulse of a wave stretching out onto the vast shore of the beach… yes it would stretch out like that and wash away the debris from that shore… from the scene of human affairs.

There really isn’t much “time” left. That’s the feeling I get. Less than half a decade is my sense. Are we moving with enough haste? If not now… then when?

Are we ready for that?
By God… I AM.
What are we waiting for?
What am I waiting for?
No-thing.

A friend has recently brought the content of a particular translation and interpretation of the famous Bhagavad-Gita to my attention. That, and also a relatively well known — although perhaps now dead — Indian Guru that taught the content of the Gita to his students (the modern Hare Krishna movement). I was reading through some of this edition of the Gita and also a book by this Guru on “Bhakti Yoga” (the path of devotional yoga — the attainment of enlightenment through devotion to a Guru).

As I read this book I was starkly aware of what to me come across as major limitations in this sort of Eastern doctrine. In my experience, a dominant slant in these two books (this version of the Gita and the Bhakti Yoga book) was towards the notion that the soul of he who is unenlightened is tainted, impure, unable to contain ANY light, and essentially condemned to living hell until such time as this person finds a true Guru/Teacher and devotes himself entirely to such a Guru. This Guru will then guide the poor fellow toward his salvation. Without such guidance he will get nowhere and will remain forever tainted as a soul, stuck in the perpetual cyclic illusion of life in the material world. A pretty grim view of things, I would say, and one that sounds awfully similar to the Fundamentalist Christian view that we are all born with original sin, condemned to an afterlife in hell (for ever) unless we surrender ourselves to this particular fundamentalist version of Jesus Christ out Saviour, amen.
According to this particular Guru, the “three gateways” to certain hell are Lust, Desire, and Ignorance (I think I’ve remembered that correctly). The aspirant must be sure to renounce all Lust and Desire (oh, it may have been Lust and Greed), and to purify himself. Only when he is completely pure will he be ready to meet his Guru. As soon as he is 100% pure his Guru will appear and help eliminate his ignorance, so that he might be “saved” from this hellish world of the material plane.

Gosh. What an interesting thing to invest ones belief, energy, and personal power into. Sounds rather horrific to me.

My friend pointed out that it reminded her of the Bible. Hmmm… not wrong there.

What is it about man and the ego, that can take the words of an Enlightened Being and mash those words up to the point where they so completely contradict what that Being was on about that we’re left with nothing but fear inducing and condeming tripe? No wonder so many people get one taste of religion and run… swearing to avoid anything remotely spiritual for ever and a day. I don’t blame them.

Well… I can only come back to the point and the Truth — as I experience it — that EVERY-THING has a perfect purpose and function in the grand scheme of things—that of Forever Expanding Awareness in Liberation. Everything (such as spiritualist views such as those I experience in this teachers work) also has its place in the world of each man and women who invests their attention into it.

Blessings…

Jonathan

Whilst sitting a morning or two ago I started to have some realisation with regards to “time”. I experienced “time” more objectively than is usual and in that space I was able to note various qualities. How accurate these observations are I can’t say. They certainly seemed pretty “real” when I had this experience — although for now I put them forward as a hypothesis.

Here are the notes I made that morning…

To the Self (”I”) what we perceive as “past” and “future” are actually the same “thing”. It is only the time related perceptual centres in the brain (a reality creating machine) that puts our experience of time into an apparent linear continuum running from part to future. I suspect this only comes about as a human being takes on an conceptual framework of self-definition during early childhood. Time, as we perceive it, is a product of the ego-mind.

The so-called and apparent “past” has an apparent impact on my future simply because they are the same “stuff”. For instance, if a person maintains that in the past he/she was abused at the age of four and this impacts on that person’s future in such a way that it results in them constantly attracting abusive situations, it appears that the past is affecting their future. What I am suggesting is that a way that is slightly tricky for the mind to comprehend, the past and the future is essentially the same collection of “stuff”. My “now” / current experience of that “stuff” in determined by what my attention is currently fixated on. Because of the cyclic nature of the collective Dream, it is highly likely that patterns will arise as I cycle through that various “stories” within this “stuff” from which past and future appear to arise and take form.

So-called “Karma” is — as previously pointed out — all here and now. Some of us say that past action creates future reaction — or “as you sow, so shall ye reap” — yet really what we are dealing with is the nature of my dream configuration here and now. The degree to which I am unconscious / ignorant is the degree to which life will seem to uncontrollably “happen” to me. If in my apparent “past” I took (unconsciously” certain life-taking actions then, of course, in my apparent “future” I will experience certain similar life-taking events… because nothing leaves it’s source. I simply project out my story into this “stuff” from which the events of my life disappear into (past) and emerge out from (future) as I sit here experiencing the now.

That which is created can not leave its source. The source of that which I appear to do and experience here and now (in this apparent world) is WITHIN.

The secret — as far as I can ascertain — is to wake up to what is going on. This is where awareness comes into the picture. Awareness sheds Light on these aspects of self that were previously in the dark (as far as my perception was concerned), due to ignorance and unconsciousness.

Desire/craving and aversion were recognised as two “impurities” or “defilements” of a person’s “self-hood” that we must get free of simply because these qualities of mind can only arise from and be perpetuates by an ignorant mind. Once I am awake to the fact that EVERYTHING that appears to be taking place in my world is extending out from WITHIN and that it can not leave its source, I will cease to crave or avert what I see in my world.

Rather I will turn the world around and use what I perceive to bring me back to the source from which it all extends — my SELF.

Thus, reality as I experience it right now is exactly what I need in order to set myself free.

Everything is happening for me and not to me, and is ultimately created by me. This we have explored before now. The purpose of everything that I experience is to bring me back to the source — back to Self so that I may reconcile with the Truth That I Am… with Love… with God.

If past and future are composed of the same “stuff” then trying to influence the course of events in my apparent future independent of my memory of the apparent past is just folly.

To bring about a configuration change in the “stuff” that past and future are “made” of I can focus on either — past and/or future. For instance, if something terrible happened to me when I was six — or in some past life thousands of years ago — then until I have reconciled that experience within myself it will continue to exert an influence on and play a part within my apparent future. My memory of the so-called and apparent “past” will influence my “memory” of the future — for they are the same thing. What I appear to be experiencing here and now is simply whatever aspect of my “memory” (past/future memory) I happen to be fixated on with my attention, here and now.

I don’t mean to suggest that if a person is 40 and is going to die at 80, that their 40 years of “future” is going to look exactly like their 40 years of “past”. Rather, what I am suggesting is that what they perceive as their 40 years of history and then experience as the next 40 years of future (prior to death) is just a perceptual illusion generated by the mind as they look outward into their creation (their world). There are many details that will appear to be different, as there are many other influencing factors playing out in a person consciousness that I am not elaborating on here. Also, the choices the make and the intentions they actuate will influence the “stuff” from which their past and future is composed.

My In-tension (intention) will direct my at-tension (attention). Hence it is the power of my In-tention that allows me to consciously (and unconsciously) “create” (or co-create?) my reality. The question that begs to be asked, however, is “do I really wan to?” So long as my focus is “out there” on what I am consciously or unconsciously creating, am I not potentially going to miss the point of it all — namely its function of returning me to God if only I was willing to turn the world around and own and reflect on my role in it all ?

I have a picture I have drawn the illustrates the nature of time as I saw it this morning, compared to time as most people in the “Western” culture perceive it. I will endeavour to transfer this onto my computer and add it to this article.

Blessings… Be well…

Jonathan

Your Divinity lies within.
Your brain is a bio-metaphysical reality creation mechanism.
It is a somewhat like a film projector.
Your mind feeds in the film,
The Light that is God and your SELF,
S%����rough that film,
And voilà !!
You perceive reality as you know it.

Your mind uses what you call your brain and your nervous system to construct the perceptual experience of a tangible reality.
Your mind and brain are much like the software and hardware of a very impressive Holodeck — like that seen on Star Trek.

Your heart is a tuning fork that picks up and atones with the frequency of the reality you are creating with your mind.
It is through the heart that a tangible experience of Love (your true nature) is made manifest in the reality you are creating.
Look after it and use it wisely and openly.

Your Divinity lies within.
There is no point in looking out toward ANYTHING at all for your Divinity.
Do not look to “God” — for That is also within.
Do not look to a Guru — unless you find a Guru that is willing to return you 100 % back to that which is within.
Do not look to religion. You might like to get a handle on what various religions have in common. Fine.
But to join a religion is to go without.
Better to be religious, to cultivate a state of religiousness, then to join a religion.
Do not seek a Teacher. If you’re going to be served by a teacher than that Teacher will come. Until then, it’s just a waste of energy.
Go within.

You are an exquisite Being.
You are magnificent.
Trust that.
Love that.
Be that.

Anger is a powerful force. I used to claim that I didn’t tend to ever feel angry. Then later down the track I discovered that this force would arise within my world more often than I’d allowed myself to admit — or, more accurately, to FEEL. I discovered that what I sometime felt as depression and melencoly was in fact the introversion of anger. So I started to expore this force. What is it? Where does it come from? What message does it tell me? Why does it arise?

There is something about the human ego-mind that detests chaos and change on level at which most people relate to their lives. The paradox is that it’s the human ego-mind that consistently creates perceived outer chaos in the world — be that your personal world or the collective world.

In today’s society we have a vast array of mechanisms in place to try and avoid chaos. Everything from keys and locks, insurance, prisons, pharmaceutical drugs, much of our medical system, television, much of the rubbish in the media, billions of laws worldwide, armies and police forces… oh really… the list would in fact be almost endless. The key here is that most people recoil from what they perceive to be chaos, forever clinging to a safe version of reality that they think will best enable them to survive. The problem — if I can call it that — is that we are not here to survive. Ego-survival means nothing to the Soul and for all intents and purposes is more akin to being dead.

I have, however, found that a person’s capacity and willingness to embrace apparent chaos is a major deciding factor in how fully they experience the flow of life and the infinite support that Life extends into their world — were they simply willing to experience and accept it. Chaos brings with it the unknown. The ego-mind gets rather fixated on the “known”. Once it has locked onto something that appears to be “permanent” it then creates wondrous, elaborate, and entirely fictional stories about this object of its attention. These stories serve one purpose only. The purpose is to perpetuate the illusion of separation. Really the ego itself has not other purpose but this. There is, of course, no separation. Therefore this entire dance of madness takes place in the mind — the mind of He or She who perceives there to be separation and true purpose is the insanity of the ego.

Religion is also an attempt at avoiding apparent chaos. Religion organises the unknown and the ineffable into something structure, definitive, and relatively safe for the ego. Religion is man’s attempt at defining and making known that which is essentially undefinable and unknowable. Don’t get me wrong — just because something is unknowable does not mean that is can not be experienced, embraced, and ultimately embodied.

“Living on the edge” is about living on that fine line between the known and the unknown — between chaos and order. Another paradox is that living on the edge is not about living on the periphery. Rather it is about residing in the core or the centre. For this is where our connection to the Void or Vacuity resides, and it is from here that the known (and order) extends out from the unknown (and chaos).

The greatest of blessings come to us through madness, when it is sent as a gift of the gods. Heaven-sent madness is superior to man-made sanity. — Plato, in the Phaedrus

For a person who wishes to to wake up from the Dream and reconcile with the Dreamer it is vital that she start to embrace and even seek out change and chaos. I am not suggesting you do this in a foolish and fickle way, and abandon all sense of order in your life. No, that may have some interesting consequences, yet also likely are consequences that your current dream configuration is not set up to handle in a way that is conducive to balanced and useful progress. So rather than encouraging complete and free abandon of the structures that hold your world in place, I am simply bringing to your attention that chaos and change should not be automatically and mindlessly avoided when they natural arise and impinge upon your perception.

Chaos, in small but consistent doses, is like medicine to a mind that has become hypnotised by mass consciousness (mass-consensus) to the point of paralysis, as is so common in the world today. Chaos in a large dose can be like an overdose of medicine, resulting in damage to the organism that is made to endure it. Moderation and consistency. Being open to change is the main thing to keep in mind. Realise that if you currently live in a limited reality that is based primarily (or even totally) on the misconceptions of the ego-mind, and you wish to wake up to That which is beyond this limited reality, then a lot of change is going to have to take place. That change will ultimately be shaped, guided and instigated by God or Infinity through Grace and through the movement of Intent through your mind — therefore you don’t have to worry about “how to change”. The key is to be forever open and ready to change, despite what your ego-mind might have to say about such changes as the first indications of their manifestation in your world start to appear.

That is all for now.

With love…

Jonathan

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Over the last few years I’ve watched family members raising children. There is something within this child raising process that I have observed and explored on numerous occasions which last night I was reminded of whilst listening to a discourse given by a past spiritual teacher. Hearing his mention of this brought my awareness around this issue firmly to the forefront of my awareness. I will share these revelations here for they may be of value to someone.

So, what it this “thing” I am referring to?

It is the madness within our culture whereby we invest a relatively large amount of time and energy programming children to say “please” and “thank you” like robots. Do you know what I am talking about?

“Dad, can you help me put my shoes on?”
“What do you say Johnny”
“Please Dad…”
“Good boy… yes, I’ll help you put your shoes on”.
… and once the shoes have been successfully put on and little Johnny is walking of to get on with the next moment…
“Johnny, where’s your manners? What do you say?”
“Oh… thanks Daddy”.

To give thanks is to act on and express a feeling of gratitude. This feeling of gratitude is a deep connected state of appreciation. I like to change this word around from “grateful” over to “great-full”. For gratitude is in my experience about re-cognising and feeling the greatness of life as it unfolds in a particular moment and form — perhaps the form of someone extending an act of kindness toward me. This greatness, how can the word “Thanks” do it any justice? It’s about as dismal as Man’s attempt to express the experience and state of That which we call “love” in the words “I love you”.

I know for myself that when I truly feel great-ful about something this great-ness will move my actions to a place of greatness also. I will therefore act in a way that reflects my gratitude. If I am grateful for something Sue has done in my world then my actions and my whole state of being will reflect and emanate this gratitude, or this “greatness”. Sue will receive and experience that on whatever level she is aware. Although if she is seeking for something as superficial as a “Thank you” then she might miss the experience of my gratitude entirely.

I am not suggesting that people should cease to say “Thank you”, although I am sure that if people said “Thank you” with greater awareness then they’d pretty soon drop this phrase from their vocabulary for the most part. Just as the seeker of truth will discover how ridiculous the words “I love you” are in comparison to the overwhelming experience of Love within every fibre of their Being, such a seeker will also discover that “Thank you” really doesn’t achieve much. If I really am grateful (great-ful) then it will pour out of me and uplift the person or object I feel grateful toward and they will get it, and “thank you” will have no purpose except to sustain a wounded ego. Likewise, if I don’t genuinely feel grateful (great-ful — full of greatness) toward someone then saying “thank you” is an outright lie, and again it’s only purpose is to stroke this person’s wounded ego.

To some degree I put the formality of saying “Please” into this discussion also. Not because “please” has no authentic role to play (in the way that “Thank You” has no such role) but rather because the way we are taught to use this word is all too often devoid of all meaning and authentic function. In French they say “sil vous plait” which literally means “If it pleases you”.
“Dad, will you drive me into town, if it pleases you?”
Put another way, “If it is in your joy to do so, then come over here and help me out with what I’m trying to do. If it does not bring you joy then forget it”. My only want for you is one of pleasure and joy.

“Dad, if it pleases you to do so, help me put on my shoes. Otherwise I’ll find someone else to assist because I don’t want to invoke your misery by going out of your way to help me”.

So, to me the word “Please” or “If it pleases you” does have a place in clear, concise, conscious communication, but not when people say it on auto-pilot. Then it is just a mindless formality infecting the mind and the person would be best to let this programming go.

“Thank you”, however, really has very little function in a world of authenticity. I understand that in India, for instance, they seldom use the term “thank you”. I’ve not studied it in depth but I suspect that it is for the most part a peculiarity of the “Western” world mindset.

Back to the issue of raising children and not passing this mindless insanity into their receptive little brains…

I feel that it would be far more loving and wiser for parents to spend time with their children helping them to get in touch with that part of their heart that feels gratitude and connectedness. When a child doesn’t learn to ignore and forget this part of their self then their gratitude will not only be naturally expressed through their actions but it will also be far more extensive and responsive to far more of life. To say “I give thanks God for this meal I am about to eat” means nothing on it’s own. Again, it’s just a madness, a formality arising out of the misconceptions of the ego-mind. Do we really think there is some old chap called God that even gives a shit about whether we thank him or not? On the other hand, to feel deep gratitude for each mouthful of food as I eat and relish my meal, great-full that my body and my life is being sustained by this miracle, and great-full for all the forces and people that have played a part in getting this food to my mouth in this moment… well, that’s an entirely different thing. To feel and BE in that place of gratitude will spill out from my heart into all of Life.
Let us guide our children toward that sort of experience rather than this experience of mindlessly blurting out “thank you” all over the show and just about any time any one does any thing for them.

In terms of saying “please” all the time — well, again, let us bring the attention of our child to that loving place within their heart where they what people to experience greater joy. Where they can be aware that if doing something for me brings you joy and it pleases you then by all means do it for me. The flip side of this is that the child will also get in touch with (or remain in touch with) that part of them that also feels joy when helping other people. They want go around doing stuff for people purely out of an automatic sense of obligation, which really serves nothing but madness again. The more they extend themselves in the world for the sake of other beings the more joy they will feel — and, without the need to hear the words “thank you”. The joy such a child is feeling will be more than enough compensation.

With love and blessings,

Jonathan

The truth is that God does not exist and never has. Therefore it is time we let God die.

God is a concept, like all the other many concepts the human trip traps itself within.
God is just another story, another element of the grand illusion.
Therefore it is inevitable that God must die.

Are you up to the task?

He won’t die on his own accord.

Oh no, it’s going to take someone brave, someone courageous, someone who actually thinks they know God to step up and do the deed.

The assassination of God.

It’s not going to be easy, but as it is inevitable we might as well get it over and done with.

She’ll fight back and get bitchy with you.
He’ll try to crush you with guilt.

Are you ready for the challenge?

Here in this human world it is our perception of God that ensures—completely guarantees—that we will never actually know That which is being referred to as God.

As you know, language is nothing but symbols. Perception is also symbolic. We have formed language as a way of communicating perception. Therefore words are symbols of symbols and hence at least 2 steps removed from the truth of direct experience. The symbol “GOD” is so far removed from what it is attempting to refer to that it’s a disaster and has brought about much madness and disaster in this world. It’s time we killed God and put this whole thing aside.

Now get this right. God is a concept. Just a role within our collective illusion or story. An erroneous concept at best.
Hence it is our (mis)conception that must die a much needed death. The story of God is so old and antiquated it’s really time we let our sentimental attachment to God go, and let the old fart rot in hell—yet another part of our story that we’d do well to release and let die.

Most people are faced internally with nothing but intellectual and emotional bull-shit when they think of God and the word God.
Then there are those people that get pissed off at the idea of God, or at least feel a strong aversion even at the mention of the word God.

For most of the people I meet the concept of God is the greatest barrier they face in actually knowing that which this symbol “God” is referring to. Whether they have an affirmative view of this symbol (i.e. they “Believe in God”) or they have a negative view of this symbol (i.e. “God” does not exist, it’s just lies and delusions, “I don’t believe in God”), this “God” concept is maintaining separation from that which is being referred to as “God”.
What a pity. Such a loss…

A swift assassination is the only answer.

To “believe in God” is no different from “beleiving there is no God”. Both are traps set up within the ego-mind. Belief, as the Kahuna would say, is only required for that which is not real. Hence the God I believe exists is as unreal as the God I believe does not exist.

I’ve been in situations where a person will tell me “Oh yes, I believe in God” with this sentimental, righteous, or even a “I’m so fucking holy” (holyier than thou) look in their eyes and I know that they have no idea. Sad, but all perfect.
“God” the concept is something one can believe in or not believe in.
God the Reality is NOT something that can be believed in.
I repeat… as the Kahuna of ancient Hawaii would say, “Belief is only required for that which is not real”.
Well our concept of God is not real. It’s complete mindwash, utter crap.
Just a story, and a pretty disasterous one at that.

I either directly experience and know that which is referred to as “God” or I do not.
It’s not a question of belief.
It’s as simple as that.

Infinity
Great Spirit
Spirit
The Vacuity
The Void
Tao
The Absolute
The Eagle (in Toltec terms)

These are all symbols (words) used to elucidate and indicate that which is being referred to.
Hence, once you have put to death your false concepts of God then the next step is to sit in the still calm space that is created once this concept of God has been dropped.

Oh such space. Such glorious space.

The perfection in voidness, to view vacent veneration as a VIP vacation (words of a dear friend of mine)

Again, whether you “believed in God” or did not “believe in God” this whole God thing has been taking up space within your mind. It was a waste of space.
Once this space is clear of such tripe, a stillness will remain.
Sit there. Be there.

Breath there.

Allow a new experience, a knowing, to arise.
True lasting Peace exists in that still place within.

The truth is That which I AM, that which you are, and that which we refer to as God / Infinity / Spirit etc is ONE.
It’s the same ONE thing and no-thing.
More wars have been fought—more people have been intentionally put to death—in the name of God than perhaps any other cause. Why?
Because our concept of God is all messed up. It’s life-taking through and through.

There is a still, calm centre within all of us that is That which we refer to as God, and it is deeply Peaceful.
Peace does not create war.
Lies, deception, and illusions of separation create war.

One of our biggest sources of lies and separation is the lie we collective maintain about “God”.
That lie destroys us and moves us to destroy ourselves.
That lie is destructive.

It is life-taking and it drains each of us every day that we entertain it.
There is no Inner Peace is this lie called “God”.

Drop the lies and Inner Peace will remain.

Within that still calm place of Inner Peace the actual direct experience of that which we refer to as God / Spirit / Infinity etc will arise on it’s own accord. It has been attempting to reach into your awareness since the beginning of our so-called “time”. Although do not get me wrong. “It has been attempting” could easily be again interpreted as something personified, like an God doing an emotive act or some other confussion like that. That’s not to say that you won’t be moved emotionally, but that movement is your own creation is response to what Is.

This is more akin to a magnet “attempting” to pull another piece of metal toward itself. There is nothing personal, sentimental, or emotive about that.
You would not personify a magnet when you observe that it is pulling a piece of iron toward itself, would you? So neither should we personify that which we call “God” in discussing the fact that “It” has been attempting to reach into your awareness since the beginning of time.
It is nothing personal. Although the contradiction of that is…

That the experience of IT is deeply intimate and perhaps the most “personal” thing you’ll ever have unfold within your world.

I shall say no more.

With love,

Jonathan

I’ve discussed “Karma” in other writings on this site. Here I would simply like to give attention to what I experience as a rather futile way of relating to Karma that appears to be quite common in many of those who accept the idea of Karma — futile in the sense that this particular relationship to Karma perpetuates the Victim mentality that we must all drop if we wish to reclaim our Power.

She served me the beer I was now drinking and enjoying with my friend. We sat there, in mental and emotional territory awoken or perhaps highlighted by our response to the movie we’d just seen only minutes before. Talking. Exploring rather deep and esoteric questions about the nature of life, purpose, function, and reality. Closer.

Our waitress finished work for the night. Easter Friday meant that a strict closing time of midnight was enforced. This was one of the only places on the street were we had even managed to find someone willing to serve us a drink—on one of the few nights I’ve actually searched for such a thing in many months. With her cigarettes, cellphone, and note pad she sat close enough to have a conversation, although the distance called for a loud voice and certainly didn’t allow for a feeling of intimacy. We could hear each other and that was enough. After some chat about things typical of first meetings, I asked her why she is here, what she is alive for. Initially it was perhaps that fact that her mother tongue is German that she didn’t understand what I meant.
“You are alive in this body, yes?”
“Well yes…”
“… And if you walk out onto that street tonight and happen to step in front of a bus and it wipes your body out then life here in this world will cease for you, yes?”
She agreed.
“So, if this life that you have is so fragile, yet it is here and you are here, why are you here? What is your purpose? What are you passionate about?”
“… ummm… this is such a hard question. I don’t know the answer”
“Well, you are travelling, yes, so what is it you are looking for”
Her German was no longer the issue. Rather this was unfamiliar territory for her too.
She determined that she was looking for happiness. For joy. Yet also for sadness.
Happiness.
“So you are looking for happiness. Have you ever considered why you are here in this world”
She had not.

So here we are. My whole thinking life—my life since perhaps 8 years of age and seriously since 12 or so—I’ve not been able to live without this question or an awareness of this question in my consciousness. Here she is, and this is perhaps the first time she’s given her attention to such a thought.

Life in this world is a very bizarre phenomena. Life is strange. Yet strangely it is beautiful.
Consciousness unfolding.
Apparent fragments of That which I AM unfolding through time and space. Just a perception.
There is only that life that I Am… yet so many expressions. So many experiences.
Life is an mysterious thing. Perhaps that is why humanity goes to such length to destroy it.