Archive for August, 2004

Touched

Published by Jonathan 3 years, 10 months ago in Poems, prayers, Decrees and miscellaneous ramblings. 0 Comments

Father-Mother God,
What act can I take
That will truly express this love as it makes it way into form?
Tell me silently,
What words can I quietly utter,
Or announce out loud,
That will do justice to how I presently feel?

Touched.
Deeply—truely.
I stand here touched and moved.
So elevated in spirit,
Yet my feet so firmly planted in the ground.
Holy Ground. A sacred place.

Father-Mother God,
Of what can I do?
Naught. I know.
Just to stand here and feel.
To relish the unwaivering fact
That as a man amongst men, I am exactly That—
Truly a MAN amongst Men.
Like never before,
and forever more—I know.

Love thyself…

Published by Jonathan 3 years, 10 months ago in General and Various Inspirations, Realisations and Explorations. 0 Comments

I am sure you’ve heard the moral statement, “Love thy neighbour as you have him love you”, or “Treat your neighbour as you would have him treat you”.

I wish to explore this briefly and take a slightly different look at it.

What I feel moved to share is that for most it would be far better to actually let this whole idea go. Rather than trying to love thy neighbour as you would have him/her love you—I would suggest the following.

“Love yourself as you would like you neighbour to love you”. “Treat yourself as you would have your neighbour treat you”

I am aware that for many it has become quite normal to treat their self harshly. It has become normal to carry around self-judgement, self-criticism, self-defeating feelings, self-hatred even, and an ongoing lack of total loving self-acceptance. How many people, for instance, look in the mirror in the morning and feel a really deep sense of love and acceptance toware what they see? I feel the answer to this question is quite clear.

Hence, if I am a person that looks in the mirror with judgement, denial, self-judgement, and criticism, then the idea of “treating my neighbour as I would have him treat me” is somewhat rediculous. How could I ever really, deeply expect my neighbour to treat me any better than I treat myself—and, therefore, how is treating him like I’d have him treat me (through my unloving image of myself) ever be of any service to him/her? If I judge and think/feel badly toward myself I think it not possible that I could ever deeply feel others not seeing me in this same tanished way.

Therefore I would like to suggest that living by the principle of “Love thyself as you would have the world love you” is far more appropriate.

I’d like to explore that a little.

If I am a man—deep down in my heart how would I like a woman to love me? My mother, my partner, etc. How would I honestly have them love me if I could choose? How would I honestly choose to have other men love me and treat me? What sort of love would I ultimately want from my Father and male friends? Just how would that feel? How would they see me? What sort of thoughts would I have them think of me?

Anyone in their right mind—I am sure—would certainly want other’s to have the highest thoughts and feelings toward them. I know I’d want all people to see the best in me, to foster my strengths and forgive my weaknesses. Yet before I could ever truly, authentically, want that for other man or woman, I must first be able to feel that way toward myself—for in this grand Story there is only that ONE SELF.

I would suggest that once a person masters loving and treating themself as they would wish others to love and treat them, the innately “their cup would runneth over” and this love would extend out into the world in such a way that nothing could stand in its way.

I invite you to sit with this. To feel what this would be. To feel how this might feel? I would it feel to totally love and accept all of who you know yourself to be? What would that be like if it were true RIGHT NOW? Sit with it. Breath with that feeling for a while.

With love and blessings,

Jonathan

Into the Heart of (the) Matter

Published by Jonathan 3 years, 11 months ago in General. 0 Comments

Getting into the Heart of the Matter. Getting into the Heart of Matter.

The doorway into the Heart is through the dimension of feelings. This I have said before many times elsewhere on this site. The thoughts—arising in the human mind—and the emotions—arising in ones astral field which is essentially another aspect of the human mental body/mind—lead me to my true feelings.

They will, however, only play this role if I cease to give them so much importance and perceived purpose. The degree to which I place value in my thoughts and emotions is the degree to which they will distract me from their only real purpose.

That real purpose is to lead me into the Heart. Into the deeper dimension of the Inner Heart—to where the level of pure feeling (FEALING) exists. Go a step deeper than that and we arrive at a place that is deeply within, yet also beyond, the general field of human experience—beyond the human story / dream. It is from that “place” that Miracles arise into this perceived world.

To deny thought and to deny emotion is to deny oneself. Yet to fixate on emotions and on thoughts is also to deny oneself—for it is fixating ones attention on that which ultimately does not exist and is not real. It is simply another part of the story. To try and control thought is to fixate on thought. To try and control emotions is to fixate on emotions. Both acts are an avoidance of ones True Self. Both are a distraction. Yet, of course, to engage is that is perfectly okay if that’s what you choose to do. It’s only a story afterall. It can NOT ever change who and what you truely are in the eyes of God / Truth / Love.

Many thoughts arise from the collective. From the environment. From other people in ones vacinity and beyond. Yet, this “world” or this “other” that I talk about is not seperate from Self—it is another aspect of YOUR story… my story.
To take thoughts and feelings personally is unwise—althought perfectly okay is that’s what you choose to do. There is nothing personal about thoughts and feelings… althought of course such thoughts and emotions are the product of what I have come to know as my “personality”—yet this is not Self. It will, however, lead to Self.
Personality is a projection of my story and the collective story out into my field of awareness. The two stories are inseperable—until such time as one has reached deeply into the Heart of (the) Matter. Through feeling with full awareness.
Awareness actually exists on both sides of the gateway. Feelings reside on this side of the threshold. “This” behind the general sphere of human experience / expression. Awareness is on both sides of that threshold—for awareness in fact permeates it all. Hence, to surrender deeply into my feelings with total unwavering awareness is to surrender deeply into the Heart of (the) Matter—any matter. Matter as in the physical stuff of the world—and matter as in “what’s the matter?”.

Awareness is what will carry you through.

So long as all this is only a head trip then it’s all a bunch of shit. Meaningless. Hopeless.
So how does it feel to you?
Like a head trip?
If so, then that’s simply how your story is permitting you to receive what you have read. That’s okay—if you allow it to be.

Changing the Dream is about transforming what comes accross as an intellectual head-trip into a deep inner experience.

Then, and only then, does deep lasting Peace arise. In that Peace there is so much Love. Not that Love exists in varying degrees. Perhaps I could say that in that Peace—when penetrated and embodied—there is a very full experience of Love. That Love naturally extends into the world and brings about Trans-form-ation.

With love and respect,

Jonathan

P.S. I don’t expect that the above will make a lot of sense to most. Although perhaps it will. What I do know is that the ego-mind can only read non-sense in what I have written here. Hence, I invite you to experience/read what is written here through your feelings rather than through your thoughts and/or emotions. Give it a go. Sit with it. See how it feels. Deep deep inside—if you’ll allow yourself to go there for a moment.

How to change the world…

Published by Jonathan 3 years, 11 months ago in General. 0 Comments

There are now many mainstream movies (Fahrenheit 9/11, The Corporation, Up Size Me, etc) and books (by Mike Moore, Noam Chomsky, John Pilger etc) readily available around the world. People are watching and reading these sources of information in huge numbers. People that previously believed what they heard through the news and mass-media are now taking in much of the information presented in these illussion shattering movies and books.

The question I was asked recently is “So, what can people do about the state of the world?”.
The world is in a real mess. We’re on the brink of a global crisis in so many ways and on so many levels. If you don’t know what I am on about then I can only suggest you open your eyes and start finding out. The information is out there and readily available.

Back to this pertinent question — Just what can people do about it?

In my experience everything we collectively see playing out in the world is a product / projection of that which is going on within the mass human psyche. I can’t see it any other way, as much as I might try in order to suit those that still believe in duality and victimisation… in “them” and “us” type madness. There is no “they” out there doing bad stuff to “us”. WE are collectively creating what we see in the world.
It’s all a dream. A story. We collectively write and act out that story.
I know all too well that this sort of “idea” really gets right up some people’s arse and pisses them right off. You better stop reading if that’s the reaction you have.

So, if what I am saying is correct then the only way to change this world (the collective story) is for each individual to change their world—their individual story. When a critical mass point is reached—of people that are maintaining a story based on unity, peace, forgiveness and Truth, and devoid of duality and victim mentality—then the global “Story” will transform into something quite different from what you might see “out there” right now.

If this doesn’t make sense to you then please read over some of the articles in the FEAL Site.

One thing I can say for certain is that going out into the world and trying to change the way things are is not going to lead to the global story transforming into Heaven on Earth. In my experience I would say that it will only lead to further reinforcement of duality and the illusion that humity currently lives in. All change—self change and global change—starts within.

Blessings,

Jonathan

Welcome

Published by Jonathan 3 years, 11 months ago in General. 0 Comments

I extend to you a warm welcome.
I am starting a new FEAL weblog as the other one didn’t survive the transfer to my new hosting servers a few months ago. It’s still available for viewing at www.feal.org/blog/ — although much of what was on there was only a repeat of various articles I posted at www.feal.org/articles
The content that was not repetative I am going to copy over into this new Weblog.

With love and blessings,

Jonathan Evatt